Two words to sum up my general feelings right now...
Three science classes wouldn't be so bad if the tests were a little bit spread out, and I really can't afford to be working between classes but I have to pay for shit.
I've always kinda liked the fact that I'm among the youngest in my grade. Sure, it sucks sometimes, but it makes me feel smart and that kinda makes up for it. Now, if I can figure out a way to finance it, I think I'm gonna extend my pre-pharmacy to three years, maybe take the third year at KU so that I don't have to worry about transfering the credits as the right thing and that way I can spread the rest of my classes out. I'll techniquly be a sophmore and I'll, in theory, be about the same age as my fellow sophmores. As for my associate in science...well, it depends if there's a time limit. If there isn't a time limit then I'm definatly dropping my ethics class and screw bowling. If there is a time limit, well, I think that I'll drop Ethics anyway and just not get my associates. Even with dropping ethics it'll be a stressfull year, but at least it won't be as stressfull.
Oh yeah, I hate my Chem 1 teacher from last year. I don't know what the hell he's doing teaching a college level course (he's a high school chem teacher) but he really screwed me over. The only things I learned from that class was what I read in the book, and some things the book just doesn't explain very well.
I think I'm gonna cry myself to sleep now. Not really, although when I got done trying to study for my organic chem test (8PM to 1motherfuckingAM) and realized that I didn't understand a lot of shit (mostly from Chem 1 and a few things that I havn't learned yet in Chem 2 none of which did we go over in organic.) Heh, I walked back to my room and was just like "man, I really just want to sit down and play piano" because that's what I use to do to realive stress but 1) I don't have a piano and 2) it would ironically only frustrate me more becuase I can't play 97% of the stuff that I use to. But anyway, it's the first test and it's mostly review. So if nothing else, I think I can compensate for one bad horrible test at the begining of the year. Besides, if I take one pre-pharmacy year at KU then I can afford to fuck up this semesters Organic and just take it again next semester. (if my step father wouldn't of stole thousands of dollars from me then an extra year at KU could maybe of been a definate...cheap bastard.) This semester could be like an intro to Organic. And hey, if hell froze over and I got an A in the class then I wouldn't have to bother with it second semester.
Fuck. I still have Anatomy and Physiology homework....fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. Someone please shoot me, I think I've gone insane. Hell, I'm not doing it. She's gives us one class period grace period anyway.
If you see me around and I look like or act like I'm pissed at you, I'm not. I'm just stressed. Now, on the other hand if you run into me in the next two days and I'm extremly happy..well, I've either gone insane or I'm on drugs, neither of which is a good thing. Well, I'll try to stay optimistic.